When tears are not enough...

I feel the sensation to cry. But I just can't. Is it because I do not want to show that you have hurt me? That I want to forget you and be strong...
What did I do? Can't you listen to your own heart and hear and do what you want to do? Not what he says or she says. Why did you pull me in so much and just push me off the cliff? You felt no compassion for me. You didn't listen to anything I said or even what you said. You just followed others. And you pulled me along with you! What am I to you? What am I?
No warning what so ever. And you just let me go, like that. And if I do cry its because I hate you. I hate you so much for playing with my heart. I hate you for bringing me on the high and just leaving me there. I hate you for listening to your friend and loving yourself more then me. And i feel sorry for you. I also hate how your friend (who I thought was mine too) had to always be on my back. Making me feel bad. And I know he was a part of all this. Because he wanted to. So I hate him to. But I refuse to mourn on you. My anger over shadows that too much.