All forever.

All is lost....All is gone...All alone in the sand....With all that is lost.
"I have nothing anymore"
My hands are dirty and my heart is broken. I could I have been so careless how could you have gone? I lay with my tears staining the earth. Oh how I miss your touch. You hands with so much warmth. How I lay precious in your arms. How I held your face in my hands and I kiss your soft lips. How my love for you is so unbreakable no one can harm it. I would feel so alone in this world without you. But yet now, all is lost. Was it just a dream? My destiny? But I want to chase my dreams I want to chase my destiny. For once I want to follow through with something that is worth fighting for.
I see light.
I feel a tug at my clothes. I turn and look behind me and staring up at me is a little boy.
"I know your face"
And when I look up, I see you coming towards me.
You come closer and closer. You come arms length in front of me....You say....
"All is not lost"
I stare at amazement. He is standing in front of me now, they both are.
"I told you, if you ran I would chase you"
I couldn't help but to smile.
All is not lost, he is here. He is the same as he was. He is the love of my life. I have not changed I am still here. I love him so much. He is so strong and brave. For he can save someone as precious as me. I run into his arms and place his face in my hand and kiss his soft lips. All was never lost.

my freedom

All I want you to do is understand. Just find that simple peace inside of you. I don't want to convince you I just want you to find it in yourself. I want you to feel the love I feel without working so hard. Just let go.

I need this place to survive. I need to find that inner glow in me I get when I come here. I'm not who I am if I do not come here. It holds my adventure my spirit. No one can take that away from me, no one will. I will not sit here and explain it to you if you do not understand it the way I do. I will simply go there without you.

You have to understand...This is who I am. I dream of dreams that cannot happen. I think of things that are not real. But I love that about me. Because I am not afraid to. I like to imagine and create things. That just my character. You will probably never understand and I don't care. Just let me do it, and don't laugh at me, don't put it down. For then I will not have respect for what you dream and admire.

Let me imagine and dream. Just let me be free.

All That I'm After

Just give me a feel.

I want to taste this new feeling.

Give me a chance I want to take down these walls.

I'll do whatever it takes to make you believe me.

I'll give you a reason to never look down upon me.

I just want to be happy, I get this life once.

With new ideas and feelings I never thought I had.

With new hopes and dreams I never knew I wanted.

Feet coarse from tough roads.

Eyes fierce from deep stares.

Scares fading from bleeding enemies.

I'm no longer scared.

I'm no longer worried to look down upon me.

I'll keep coming back to the side of the road.

It will be awaken.

The story will written.

The story will begin.

A thought....

All my life I've felt I have lived, for a purpose. I am living to change the world. When I was a child I used to play and have missions with my imaginary friends that needed my help. That needed me. I miss them. For when I was young and filled with imagination, everything was easy. But things are different now, and I guess all I want is to go back to that state of mind. Even if it's just for one more day.

Growing up, I have forgotten that feeling of dreaming. To dream and think was my favorite thing to do. But now, I realize I have to act. I want to find my passion and I want to pursue a goal. I don't know what it is yet, but I have some ideas.

And after all these years, I cant hide the fact that I am scared to be alone. I don't like to be alone. And I've always felt my whole life, I was missing something. I want things to go right. But this time, I don't want to think about it. I just want to enjoy my time, and appreciate what and who I have. I want to fight this time. I want to make this work. I guess you can say this is my goal as of now. And I just want to make it come true.

My Partner

I closed my eyes and devoured myself in your presence. And then I just let go. And when I opened my eyes, there I was in your room. You were fast asleep dreaming in you bed. Your breathing was heavy, your body peaceful. This will only take one night, and tonight is that night. I move closure and i sit next to you. You are fast asleep, your skin in glowing with the shadow of the moon. And I gently touch your face. You stir a little but didn't wake. I hear a car from outside, so I go to the window. I thought it was his father, but it was just the neighbor. But I hear you move a little more and your eyes opened. They opened wide. He notices me and is completely scared. He begins to sit up but I race over with my finger over my lips telling him "Shhhhh its okay". He asked "Why are you here? Are you alright?" I push the hair out of my face and I look in his eyes and I tell him "I've opened it, I've embraced it, and I want to show you." I could see a glisten of hope in his eyes and curiosity. I held is face in my hands, closed my eyes, pulled him closure and kissed his forehead. A rush of magnificence rushed through my veins. And next thing I know, we are in the garden. i can feel the sun on my back. I can feel the breeze of spring in my hair. I let him adjust. His eyes are wide, and hes looking around at everything. The trees, the sky, the glow in the air. And he asks, "Where are we?" and I say "This is the garden, where my mother married my father" and then I tell him "Look down". I see him look and then his eyes sharpen, and he reaches down and picks the little green flower. "Its a four leaf clover" he says and I say, "They all are" I see him look around and what looks like grass, is all four leaf clovers. On this floor of luck my mother and my father gave their trust, luck, and love. Here is where they bonded. Hes still in amazement but he looks at me. "You did it" and he gives me a smile. Yes I've embraced how to be home and be here in this other world. And I couldn't have done it without him.