Monday, January 25, 2010

A thought....

All my life I've felt I have lived, for a purpose. I am living to change the world. When I was a child I used to play and have missions with my imaginary friends that needed my help. That needed me. I miss them. For when I was young and filled with imagination, everything was easy. But things are different now, and I guess all I want is to go back to that state of mind. Even if it's just for one more day.

Growing up, I have forgotten that feeling of dreaming. To dream and think was my favorite thing to do. But now, I realize I have to act. I want to find my passion and I want to pursue a goal. I don't know what it is yet, but I have some ideas.

And after all these years, I cant hide the fact that I am scared to be alone. I don't like to be alone. And I've always felt my whole life, I was missing something. I want things to go right. But this time, I don't want to think about it. I just want to enjoy my time, and appreciate what and who I have. I want to fight this time. I want to make this work. I guess you can say this is my goal as of now. And I just want to make it come true.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

My Partner

I closed my eyes and devoured myself in your presence. And then I just let go. And when I opened my eyes, there I was in your room. You were fast asleep dreaming in you bed. Your breathing was heavy, your body peaceful. This will only take one night, and tonight is that night. I move closure and i sit next to you. You are fast asleep, your skin in glowing with the shadow of the moon. And I gently touch your face. You stir a little but didn't wake. I hear a car from outside, so I go to the window. I thought it was his father, but it was just the neighbor. But I hear you move a little more and your eyes opened. They opened wide. He notices me and is completely scared. He begins to sit up but I race over with my finger over my lips telling him "Shhhhh its okay". He asked "Why are you here? Are you alright?" I push the hair out of my face and I look in his eyes and I tell him "I've opened it, I've embraced it, and I want to show you." I could see a glisten of hope in his eyes and curiosity. I held is face in my hands, closed my eyes, pulled him closure and kissed his forehead. A rush of magnificence rushed through my veins. And next thing I know, we are in the garden. i can feel the sun on my back. I can feel the breeze of spring in my hair. I let him adjust. His eyes are wide, and hes looking around at everything. The trees, the sky, the glow in the air. And he asks, "Where are we?" and I say "This is the garden, where my mother married my father" and then I tell him "Look down". I see him look and then his eyes sharpen, and he reaches down and picks the little green flower. "Its a four leaf clover" he says and I say, "They all are" I see him look around and what looks like grass, is all four leaf clovers. On this floor of luck my mother and my father gave their trust, luck, and love. Here is where they bonded. Hes still in amazement but he looks at me. "You did it" and he gives me a smile. Yes I've embraced how to be home and be here in this other world. And I couldn't have done it without him.