Who am I?

And with these eyes I finally see who I am. What am I? I am only human, but with many cracks that you can't see. I am your mother who cares more for her children s health and stability then her own. I am your daughter for who has learned how to grow from you. I am your sister who you have watched change into someone else. I am your friend, who you have seen my playful side and shared laughs with. But I am also your stranger, who you saw crying in the hallway one day. Even though you do not know my name I was in your thoughts because you saw me, weak. Everyone wants to fulfill something in life. The only thing I want to do is live. But me, so young, has had demons. I am weak. I am fragile. I am not a stable human. But I am not alone. I don't want someone else to complete me, I want to be strong by myself and not search for a guy to do that for me. But, that doesn't mean I don't want him, one day. Just the day I am better. But the question is, will I ever be...? - 9/30/08


But I am just human...I have cried, laughed, and loved. I grow. I am still growing. And each new step I take I learn something more about me. And what I have learned is that I am never "sick" or "better". I am just me. I have problems but who doesn't? I have wonderful friends and family. My heart is healthy and beating. And right now with life I am happy. Something I fear is in the future, something that will bring me down again. And if that happens, so be it. I have taken my self before. I have cried till I choked and felt useless and worthless in the dark. I have been there done that. So if I go back to that stage I will know I can get out of it, because I'm strong. But when this does happen, which it probably will, I will not think this way. But a light will shine and talk to me and tell me these words...Then only to wake up and see you there telling me these exact words written from a piece of paper I have written. I just need you to keep reminding me...Who ever you are -12/23/08